You finally went. And that took something.
You sat there and said it out loud
to another person for the first time.
The exhaustion. The drive.
The gym not working. The belly. And the doctor looked at the blood test and said:
"Your testosterone is within normal range."
And sent you home. You drove home more alone with it than when you went in.
Here is what "normal" actually means.
The reference range starts at 270.
If you were at 290. 310. Even 350. You are "normal."
You are also in the bottom 20th percentile for your age.
Your doctor isn't lying. He's measuring whether you need medical intervention.
Not whether you're the man your marriage deserves. There is a gap between
"not sick" and "yourself." The Restoration was built for that gap.
"310. Normal range. Sent home. I sat in the car park for ten minutes.
Ordered that night.
60 days later. Routine blood test. 567. Same doctor.
He asked what I'd changed.
He said: keep doing it." - Frank. 52.